recitings | [SC] Ten Years Ahead [Genesis + Clovis]

But if this really was an illusion, would he be able to feel the warm body against his and the soft, moist feel of a mouth upon his mouth? Genesis moves a hand to caress the back of Clovis' neck, encouraging him, wanting their kiss to last a little more. They didn't need to go to bed. No. Not just yet. They could take this slowly-- no, Genesis could take it slowly. He could be that way, at least for Clovis.

Whatever Clovis needs, he can give. And it makes him think... it makes him remember how Clovis described what knights did in his world.

It was just a bit difficult for him to know what to do in this situation. The only kiss of such passion given to him was one of just moments ago by Genesis. Still, Clovis tried for him -- to move his mouth, to open it slightly in invitation.

He felt his hands continue to twist the material of the man's shirt, remembering that it was his own, and feeling almost embarrassed by it. Embarrassed about how he was clinging to him so, but the warmth was calming and soothing, and helped to let him know that everything was real. It troubled him when the tears came, again; far more happy than they were sad. You're alive.

At the feel of warm tears upon Clovis' skin, Genesis moved another hand to brush away the dampness from beneath his eye. Clovis... The movement of his mouth and the little parting of lips is enough to urge Genesis to deepen the kiss a little more, his tongue darting forward to trace along a soft, untouched lip before slipping in a little, testing if he would respond to this. It was alright if Clovis refused, though. Genesis had no right to push him this way. They could just be content in each other's arms, basking in each other's warmth, not needing this kind of physical intimacy.

When the hand came to wipe away his tears, he wanted to explain that it was because he was happy. Happy to know that Genesis was safe and well. Would remain that way. Would hopefully stay within Shibusen now. It honestly made his heart ache to think that maybe he would only stay to rest then leave. Again. Don't go. It was terrible of him to think such a thing, to think of clinging to him so readily even if it made his heart feel like it would break if he were to leave.

But when the feel of his tongue, Clovis did pull away, but not for the reasons of not wanting to continuing. "I'm sorry, Genesis. I'm taking advantage of you." His shoulders dropped considerably as he felt terrible for how selfish and clingy that he was being. "I'm taking advantage of your kindness and ... love ..." Careful word as though it were precious, because it was, before moving on. "... for me ... to let me just keep taking advantage of you. I'm sorry."

"Taking advantage of me?" Genesis couldn't help but laugh a little, wondering how in the world Clovis thought of such an idea. His arms held the prince firmly, resolving not to let him go. Not just yet. And besides that...

"All this time, I've been afraid that I was taking advantage of you."

"I do not see how you could." Clovis pressed his lips into a thin line of confusion. He very lightly shook his head as he looked down at his hands which was playing with the front of Genesis's -- his -- shirt. "I brought you to my room to monopolize your time, watched you sleep, confessed so much of my feelings to you, stole kisses and continue to cling onto you."

A beat. "When you could very well just be here to rest and not to stay." His heart was hurting and burning and did feel like it was about to break to say as much to Genesis, to actually get confirmation of what he feared. "I'm forcing you to stay in order to appease my feelings for you." Oh dear, he was going to cry again if he kept speaking and turned his face away. If he did start, that would just make Genesis feel even more tied down to him.

"It's not fair and it's taking advantage of you ... manipulating you."

Edited 2010-09-27 12:05 (UTC)

But Genesis willingly followed Clovis into his room to monopolize the comfort he offered, slept in his bed and ate up his confession without realizing his own feelings after a while. And besides that... if his tiredness and his care for Clovis didn't stop him, he would have stolen more than kisses.

"You feel that my presence here was forced by you, Clovis?" Genesis chuckled, too amused by how the prince perceived the idea of 'taking advantage'. "You believe that by keeping me here you have manipulated and taken advantage of me? Ah, Clovis... beautiful Clovis."

Just to prove his point, his tone slipped a tone darker, a hint more dangerous. A hand curled around his hip, fingers pressing against the clothed flesh. And finally, his body pressed even closer-- so close they almost were on full contact with each other.

"Clovis... if I held no inkling of care or love for you, I would have done so much to truly take advantage of you." His breath brushed against the shell of an ear, before lips pressed against the soft flesh of a lobe, followed by the hard nip of white teeth.

"If I didn't love you, I wouldn't have stopped myself from taking you at all the opportunities I had... from the very moment you welcomed me into your room. I would have hurt you so badly... to do so much without an inkling of love for you."

"Genesis, I took you by the hand and more or less dragged you here." Clovis could not understand why Genesis was not understanding his apology. Forgiving him so easily? Without meaning to do so, he started to pout like in his younger years. "You need not mock what it is that I'm telling you, because you wish to be kind to me. That is what it means to manipulate another person."

His hands were about to press against Genesis's chest so that he could step away from him, to scold him more so that he would understand the situation. However, he got as far as loosening his hold on the front of his shirt before he was pulled in close -- the words and general dismissal of teasing lost. Clovis blinked a few times in surprise, letting out some noise that was neither approval or shock, but a mixture of the two as Genesis spoke, as his ear suddenly felt the center of the conversation.

"Hurt me?" The prince regained some of his senses as he moved just enough so that he could catch Genesis's eyes. "It is not in your nature to be overly cruel or vicious toward me, though." His hands finally moved away from the man's chest to grace either side of his face. Not understanding what it was that was being said to him, but thought that it was words of concerned about the madness that one felt outside of Shibusen. His fingers soothed over skin and hair, as his expression shifted to worry.

"Were you worried that you would kill me? But any sort of madness that you would have felt out in the desert is gone." His words loving and trusting, as always. "I know that you would never wish harm upon me, and so you need not worry or fear in that manner, either." Taking that form of 'advantage,' as he felt his shoulders slump, Clovis leaned in close to place a chaste kiss upon his lips.

"You really need not fear, Genesis." His smile soft, careful. "In my taking advantage of your kindness, I would be sure to keep you safe, as well."

Ah. So that was it. It made Genesis chuckle. He couldn't help it-- why did Clovis have to be so pure. Goddess... he needed to find some way to get them to communicate better.

"Clovis... I am not mad. I feel no madness. For once after months without it, I finally feel in control of my senses once again." he leaned in for a moment to brush his lips against the prince's in a tender, affectionate movement.

"Actually... I need to know... have you ever thought of lewd things before?" Genesis' voice was softer now, and his fingers were over Clovis' jaw, caressing the skin with his callous-roughened fingers. They needed to have this talk-- so they could understand each other.

"Answer my questions... and don't stray much from what I ask. You need to understand me."

His smile had returned easily, glad that Genesis was no longer fearing for his mind as he had thought, but did blink a few times as though he were not sure what he was being asked. Which was more or less true. Clovis had allowed himself to form something of a neurosis when it came to such things. It was difficult to escape from as his gaze slipped away and his nervous, anxious gestures of his youth began.

His hands pulled back so that he could begin wringing them before fiddling with his clothes, straightening his cravat and other such wrinkles that he could see. Looking away, his head gave slight movements to seek either the left or right but not directly look at Genesis while he bit his lip. Things that he was not particularly aware that he was doing, but did help to calm his thinking. "Oh, no. I could never think in those terms."

It's not very princely to think on carnal desires. Certainly Schneizel would not do so. His face began to turn just a little more red, as he could not bring himself to change the subject or lie to Genesis; not after all that he said. "It just would upset someone, I'm sure." Like my father. All the concerns about what would happen if he angered His Majesty came back to him. It was fine to say that he loved and adored the other. To be willing to give up his loyalty to the crown in being with someone that his father had not chosen -- had not approved -- for him. But it was quite another to think of anything else.

"It just is not right for me."

"I see," Genesis' tone was gentle. He paused, thinking of how he was to tell him that some craved pleasures of the flesh and that it was never given so willingly.

"So... you've never truly felt a craving for physical affection, have you? I don't think you've let yourself have fantasies either," gently, he pulled Clovis towards him, leading them to sit upon the bed. He was sure this could be a long discussion.

"I've had far too many fantasies of that kind of contact... girls, boys... I've dreamed of them quite a few times. And you were one of mine-- my fantasies. I'm sure you've learned that already from what you saw a while ago."

Taking his seat on the bed, Clovis continued to lightly tug at his cravat absentmindedly. He lightly sought Genesis's hand to hold so that he may interlace his fingers with the man's. It bothered him as soon as he became aware of it of his nervous fiddling, even as his fingers continued to tremble anxiously. "I do feel that you mean something beyond my wishes for kisses and to have you to hold me while I sleep."

His eyes widened just a little at that confession. He allowed his free hand to come up over his mouth to hide the manner in which his mouth had opened. Clovis was surprised that it was a 'were' that this was not a new development from his confession of before. The prince had been surprised about Genesis's physical state, but hadn't let himself think deeply into it. Lightly shaking his head, he finally let himself speak. "The farthest I've ever thought was a wish to see you naked."

Even after what he was told, what he understood it meant, he leaned close to Genesis. "Please, will you forgive me? It's why I ... I dragged my feet to leave when you first changed to sleep." The word were stilted as he could feel his blush deepening. Somehow, it seemed so much purer and innocent if it was the other's desires and wishes. If it came from him, it was no good at all.

Tenderly, Genesis' fingers twined with Clovis'. His wishes were truly those of romantics-- those thoughts of kisses and holding him as he sleeps. Genesis would gladly do those for him. He loved him. He loved Clovis. It was just that they still had much to work out between them before they could live harmoniously together.

"I dreamed of you naked," Genesis murmured in reply, his hold on Clovis' hand a little firmer. "I dreamed I could do so much to you... to make you feel good in a lewd way. Even until now, I wonder if we may ever get to do that, now that we've confessed to each other. But still, you don't seem to understand things from my point of view... why I believed that I was taking advantage of you."

He paused, lifting the hand to his lips to kiss soft fingertips. He felt his longing for Clovis surge up through his body once more, but he knew he had to control it-- he had to understand him first.

"How would you feel if I were to watch you undress?"

"I suppose that I would have to be," Clovis mumbled softly at the idea that Genesis had actually dreamed of him naked. Of doing such things with him. He did bite his bottom lip as he tried not to say something foolish or look anymore a child than he probably already did to the man. "No, I'm afraid I don't understand your point of view."

He looked down and away before feeling like saying that he would be willing to do anything for Genesis if he but asked him of it. Regardless if he was well-versed in it or not, he would do what he could for him. His heart felt full even though his embarrassment continued to spread across his face at the things that he did not know -- the things that he would not allow himself to know even after ten years. It was difficult to remove those neurotic and anxious thoughts that he had brewing for over twenty years, after all. While it was easy to remove his first mask to show the gentle person that his family knew, it was far more difficult to remove such feelings that he had.

"It really would only be fair since I saw you." His head gave a light shake as he realized that he was avoiding the question that was asked of him. "Embarrassed. It is why I always wore so many layers when I was younger. It's shameful of a prince to show too much skin. To be overly provocative in any manner."

A pause as he finally decided to say what his heart was begging for him to say. "But even so, I would do those things for you, if you wanted it of me. I love and trust you so much that to give everything of myself to you is really but a small feat. The largest came when I was able to tell you my feelings, or that is what I believe."

"Clovis-- would you love and trust me enough to let me undress you?" The question was firm, solemn, not wanting to let slip any lewdness in the words he spoke. He knew that it was all about sexuality-- about being comfortable with the body. But, perhaps this was something entirely different.

After all, Genesis was slowly making his way to baring every bit of Clovis. It was like a challenge: all these layers of clothing he wore were like all the layers of being-- of anxieties and neurosis which he had to break through in order to have the prince understand him.

How different Clovis was... so different from him who was far too comfortable with his own body to shield it the same way Clovis did with his.

"Let you." His hand came to rest over his cravat, tugging at the material slightly. He had just said that he would be willing to let him do anything. Clovis allowed his gaze to slip away so that he could lightly bit on the tip of one of his fingers, nervously.

Lowering his hand, he did realize how foolish that he was being. Someone his age being this silly about wanting to show himself to the person that he loved. His head gave a slight shake at his own behavior. "Of course. I was able to see you naked and able to see you while you slept. It doesn't seem fair that only I'm allowed those visions."

Reaching his hand out to touch the side of Genesis's face, he smiled softly. "Those sort of things you should show to the one that you love, right? I cannot say that I love you then not show you every part of myself. It would mean that I didn't really mean everything that I said."

In reply, all Genesis could do was smile. His hands reached for that cravat then-- that all defining article of Clovis' clothing, almost more important than the gloves he used to wear. Slowly, battle-roughened fingers undid the material, loosening it from the Prince's throat until it hung open, resting on the shirt.

Genesis swallowed. This was strange. He never felt such a tense atmosphere when it came to undressing another body. To him, often the process was quick, rushed, rough-- all lust and heat and hurry. Bright blue eyes kept their gaze fixed upon Clovis' eyes instead of the flesh he exposed with every button his fingers slid open. To some extend, this was almost ceremonial. It made Genesis laugh a little in his head-- why was he so serious about this? Why was he making such a large deal out of undressing someone. That laugh only manifested in a warm smile to assure Clovis-- his beloved.

Yes. That was it.

After fully unbuttoning his shirt, Genesis' fingers slid over Clovis' neck, caressing the soft skin with the pads of his fingertips, running a thumb tenderly over a pulse as he leaned in to brush his lips over it. He was fragrant-- roses in full bloom over a sweet, milky scent. There was a hint of woods there and a touch of musk, essential to any man, but over all, Clovis was all innocence and romance. It almost hurt Genesis to think he would sully it all so easily.

He pressed a kiss to his jaw. Then to his neck. Then to the hollow of his collarbone.

The immediate reaction was to raise his hand to stop Genesis from removing the cravat, but he was able to stop himself from pulling away. Having such things ingrained in his mind, it was difficult to remove even after everything that he said. How many times will I think so? Isn't it something of an excuse? His fingers glossed the top of Genesis's hand before dropping down to his side. Not wanting to get in the way with his any sort of fidgeting.

He was very egotistical about his looks, and still had something of an ego when it came to such things. But that was his face above all else. To think too much on his own naked skin seemed to also be just a little too obscene for the prince. It was almost comforting to have Genesis stare into his eyes, then. Even though as each button was undone, his gaze would slip off to the side and lips pressed together softly, before returning to looking at him. The same love as before was still present in his eyes, but also just a little bit of unease.

However, the smile that he was given; it warmed his heart and eased his concerns. His arms did rise yet again so that he could embrace him, but halted once more when the touch was felt on his neck. He closed his eyes as he leaned slightly into the hand; his pulse quickening slightly. Even more when the kiss was placed. His own hands hung in the air before he set them slightly on Genesis's shoulders -- trembling slightly. Drawing them close so that he could gently touch the man's neck, letting his fingers spread and reach back to play with the back of his hair.

Like before his hands stilled at the kisses. His mouth opening to help himself breathe as it seemed to become difficult otherwise. Hands leaving the light hold of Genesis's neck to cling onto the back of his shirt instead. He blinked a few times as it did take him a moment to recognize his desire beginning. Clovis let out a very soft noise as his grip changed yet again so that he could lightly shove himself back on the bed. One arm set between his legs as he looked away from Genesis.

"S-Simply," He could not take the trembling out of his voice, "from you kissing me beneath my clothes. It seems just a little shameful of me. My apologies."

Genesis could feel it-- the dull heat of passion pooling between his own legs. How long had it been since he actually did this? He couldn't quite remember now, but still... Clovis. With a breath, he got up from the bed. Back turned to the prince, he removed the shirt he wore, neatly folding it and setting it down on a nearby table. He bared himself to the other, his sun-kissed skin in contrast to the milky-peach hue of Clovis' own. Then he turned to approach him once more.

And with a smooth movement, he pulled that hand away from between Clovis' legs. Now, he pinned down the prince with both hands trapped under his hold. He was above him. And with a knee, he pressed part those slim legs still clothed. His own clothed thigh brushed against the desire he knew was beneath the clothing-- between the prince's legs.

His heart trembled. He never knew he was going to do this-- to actually take Clovis like this. He was taking deep breaths now. And he swallowed, hoping now to look like a lecher to his lover. He leaned down to give him a chaste, reaffirming kiss.

"There is no worry for it. It's only natural. I guess... you've never touched yourself have you?"

As he laid on his back, he tried to calm his own heart. His eyes closed as one hand had gone to start to tug at his clothes in a nervous manner, like he would get dressed once again. So terrible shameful of me. He could feel the heat across his face almost as prominent as the one that his hand was hiding from sight. Embarrassment or actual feelings of now just marginally repressed lust, he was not sure.

Clovis made a soft sound when Genesis came to him again. His mouth opened to once more apologize before catching sight of his skin. It was enough to give pause this time as he turned his head away, hand returning so that he could lightly bite on the tips of his fingers nervously. But both hands were soon pulled away from their respective places and held down against the mattress. "Genesis." He lightly called his name now, but did not struggle.

Eyes that had first opened in surprise at his legs being parted, but closing soon after. Not sure if this time it was in shame that Genesis could feel him as it was more that the pressure and feeling was enough for him to lean almost hesitantly into it. As before with the smile, he felt consoled by the kiss that he was given. Finally opening his eyes to look up at him and smiled softly in turn. His hands would just get in the way with his fidgeting and wish to cover himself still imprinted on his mind -- and to feel Genesis's hand against both wrists was more comforting than troubling. Because he won't hurt me.

"No." Turning his head away, yet again, even if he had nowhere else to look save the sheets. "I could never." Even as his body lightly rubbed against the other's thigh, he continued to shake his head. "It just was not something princes were supposed to do, right?"

"But all human bodies have some way of finding pleasure," Genesis chuckles, pressing kisses along the Prince's collarbone. "In some cultures, as far as I know, they always limited this act for the marriage bed. They call it the ultimate act of unity between two people. Sounds romantic, doesn't it?"

His warm breath and skin drew a path down the prince's chest. He noticed the way it lacked definition as compared to his own well-toned build. Yet, it was because of this lack that he found himself more attracted. So this is a prince's body...

Slowly, his hands let go of Clovis' wrists.

"If you feel uneasy, hold on to me."

"It does sound romantic." He smiled softly, even as his eyes remained closed. Still blushing, he wondered if the heat would fade from his face. Even as he leaned more into Genesis's touch, trying to follow him, to be closer to him. Even though it caused his own desire to continue to rise. Clovis did want to turn his head away, even as he could feel it pressed against the other's thigh still, and would not be able to easily escape from it.

Still, when his hands were released, he reached out for Genesis. He lightly touched either side of his face once more, lovingly, carefully. "Then, would you hate me terribly if I thought of it as the same sort of situation between us?" His heart suddenly felt just as full and painful as before when he first confessed his feelings. Like it would break at any moment should the wrong thing be said.

"That may be asking so much even after I just confessed myself to you," Clovis started, nervous yet again. "But I'd only like to be with you, if I am to be with anyone."

At Clovis' words, Genesis stopped in his kisses and moved to take Clovis' hands in his. He gave him a warm smile and pressed a kiss against one of those dainty hands in his own.

"No. I wouldn't hate you at all," Genesis sighed and pressed another kiss. "You were the only one I have held the most affection for. Not even my Meister gets this kind of attention from me." He took a breath, remembering that Vergil was long gone, fallen to the other side.

"You are the only one I love. And I don't mind it. I don't mind being only with you."

Perhaps it was time, as supposedly, Genesis should have been in his 40s by now. But, even with his youthful appearance, unchanged since ten years ago, he felt a need within him to actually settle down with one person to love.

"I will stay with you then... Clovis."

There was a moment -- a flash of his bratty self -- that would say that he would hope that no one else got this sort of attention from Genesis, but his rational mind said that saying such things was just foolish. Not everyone saves themselves as I have, because I could not look at these sort of thoughts. Clovis wondered if he was warming up to them, because he already was tying them in so nicely with ideas of romance and the like.

Still, he did feel that he would once more cry. As embarrassing as almost the shade of his skin was, he felt just so relieved about many things. Genesis really loved him, would really stay with him -- no, would be with him forever. Clovis lightly laughed to himself and shook his head as he decided to share these thoughts with him. "I just thinking that I would love that you would stay with me, forever. As silly as such a thing to say."

Still his hands held onto Genesis's tightly. "You said if I was uneasy, I could hold onto you, and so I do so. With these words that I hope will keep us together." Not quite a real wedding, if only in his head, but he liked it all the same.

Genesis couldn't help but chuckle-- not out of amusement, but at the feel of an incredible warmth filling his chest. It was so strange. He never truly expected this, but... it seemed that things naturally just fell into place.

His words about holding on to him were for some other reason yet, once again, Clovis had taken his words and woven them with a strange, honest sweetness that was terribly heartwarming. Genesis couldn't stop himself from smiling. Ah, he was defeated, terribly defeated by how much Clovis loved him. It was so much so that it made him love him back without any choice.

And Genesis wouldn't have it any other way.

"Are those our vows, then?"

He leaned down to press a warm kiss over Clovis' heart, their hands still clasped together.

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